how sad. 真可惜。
Archive for September, 2006
I’m afraid I can’t study Chinese anymore.
Published September 27, 2006 Uncategorized Leave a Comment“ Do not associate with a man given to anger;
Or go with a hot-tempered man,
Or you will learn his ways
And find a snare for yourself.”
I don’t usualy post song lyrics, but this is just classic.
Published September 25, 2006 Uncategorized Leave a Comment“I know there are times, your dreams turn to dust. You wonder as you cry why it has to hurt so much. Give Me all your sadness, someday you will know the reason why, with a child-like heart simply put your trust in Me.
Take My hand and walk where I lead, keep your eyes on Me alone. Don’t you say “why were the old days better”, just because you’re scared of the unknown. Take My hand and walk.
Don’t live in the past cause yesterday’s gone. Wishing memories would last, you’re afraid to carry on. You don’t know what’s comin’ but you know the one who holds tomorrow. I will be your guide, take you through the night if you keep your eyes on Me.
Take my hand and walk where I lead, you will never be alone. Faith is to be sure of what you hope for and the evidence of things unseen so take my hand and walk.
Just like a child holdings daddy’s hand don’t let go of mine. You know you can’t stand on your own.
Take My hand and walk where I lead, keep your eyes on Me alone. Don’t you say “why were the old days better”, just because you’re scared of the unknown. Take My hand and walk. “
Today was my …notice the above title…last day of work. Who would’ve thought it would be so touching. We had a big lunch get together for it and it was the fanciest food i’ve had in a long time. And when I said goodbye, the response was moving. The Varien family is truly wonderful.
Unfortunately afterwards I got a flat tire and spent half an hour looking for the tire bolt key.
But soon after that I had korean bbq.
What a day!
As an example, brethren, of suffering and patience, take the prophets who spoke in the name of the Lord. We count those blessed who endured.
You have heard of the endurance of Job and have seen the outcome of the Lord’s dealings, that the Lord is full of compassion and is merciful.
that’s what I’m doing these days. 40 words in a week. It’s exciting to be able to write again. My brother wants me to keep a Chinese journal. I think that’s a bit much to handle but imagine when I can start writing fluently!
I’m going to regain my Chinese by the ends of this year. resolved! 我已經決定了！我喜歡放屁!!!
that’s what we’ve got, a wish list and a reality list.
We all have wishes and dreams for what we want our life to look like but we know that in all reality, that list won’t be full of check marks. Reality seems much colder, much less fulfilling, much more apprehensive and hard to accept. Our wish list is completely different, it’s romantic, idealistic, and in it all of our dreams come true.
Sometimes it’s hard to wake up in the morning when your wish list has been aching in your head all night. I think the one thing that cracks open the door of hope is that I know some day my wish list will look like pitiful scraps compared to the banquetting feast which will be God’s list for me, which he will one day reveal, and it will be full of checks.
What gives me even more hope and opens further the crack, is that the Lord’s list, containing his divine purposes, is currently being checked off now, even in this life, though it presently seems to be nothing more than a cold reality.
We will see it someday and gasp. And the purposes of God, which seemed in our first life to be a solid veil will become as crystal, shining and radiant to the heart and mind.
I was singing that song today, Glory of the Cross, and realized as I sung those words quoted from Phillipians 3:7-11 about how I count my life as loss, that I realized with a start (it made me stop singing) that I don’t.
I think I used to. When I came in to UCLA my first year, I was ready to throw my life out the window for the gospel and the glory of Christ. But as these four years have progressed, my grip on my life, my future, and my hopes and dreams have tightened. And I’m finding it harder and harder to pry open these stubborn fingers.
It all goes to show, I suppose it is obvious, that man is inherently, or as Rick so humorously put it today, “intrinsically” anti-God, and that the Scriptures must continually dwell richly, that is meaningfully, within us, if we are to not lose the full effect of the second stanza of that precious verse, “…in view of the surpassing value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord.”
you know, it’s a shame that on a regular day, I would rather view a movie at the cinema than work at apprehending the value of knowing GOD.
