Archive for November, 2006

nostalgia

I stumbled across some of these old photos, I thought I might share them with you all.

1. in cambridge with korean fob friend, hair bleached, riding a bike chained to a pole (people don’t think this sort of thing is very funny, but it used to be a real good conversation starter.)

bike harvard

2. A shot of Gunn Christian Club Core at CCLR 02 I believe? notice the classic backward hat and the matching green get up. too cool.

cclr 02

3. Here’s one from my home church’s Winter Retreat. notice, the same green sweatshirt, but in place of the charming smile, a grimace. too cool

winter retreat 1

4. Another classic from retreat, check out those glasses, and yes, that’s a beanie friends.winter retreat 2

5. Here is a picture that shows my interest in girls at the time.girls

I hope I didn’t waste too much of your time.

Basketball

I went to my first basketball game last night against LongBeach State.  It turned out to be crazier than a football game.  Who knew? Even though I didn’t get my hand stamped or get the special priority seating slip, I was able to get into the student section on the floor, thanks to a friendly ticket taker.  When people yelled, the players could actually hear us. It was great, one of the guys sitting behind me yelled “Hey #2, give up on life!” and #2 actually turned around and frowned.

You know, I realized there are a lot of places I haven’t been.  I was standing in line at the CTO with my friend Tim from AA, and he started naming off places I’ve never been like Disneyland, Magic Mountain, Six flags, etc.  I think he said I was an alien.  Funny, I thought I was cultured.

Jewish Poetry…

…is very sad.

“Our despair is domesticated and gives us peace.  Only our hopes have remained wild, their cries shatter the night and tear apart the day.”- excerpt from “We did what we had to”  by Yehuda Amichai

you know,

Just because you can’t win, doesn’t mean you’ve got to be defeated.  Not all victories shine brightly.

Thanksgiving

There are a lot of things to be thankful for, here is a list of the things I don’t deserve.

1. Spiritual / Greater graces

a. I am unworthy of receiving the revelation of Scripture
b. I am unworthy of the forgiveness of my sins
c. I am unworthy of the imputation of righteousness
d. I am unworthy of entrance into heaven
e. I am unworthy of the relationship of adopted son
f. I am unworthy of the indwelling of the Spirit of God
g. I am unworthy of the personal relationship I have with the Son
h. I am unworthy of the personal relationship I have with the Father
i. I am unworthy of the peace I have with the Father
j. I am unworthy of the hope of my spiritual inheritance
k. I am unworthy of the hope of a restored and reinvigorated glorified body
l. I am unworthy of the gift of a final resting place and home in the New Jerusalem
m. I am unworthy of having a mind that can imagine
n. I am unworthy of having a heart that can feel sorrow or joy

2. Relational Graces

a. I am unworthy to have a Mother who loves me
b. I am unworthy of to have a Father who loves me in a tougher way and supports me
c. I am unworthy of having an older brother who protects me and cares for me
d. I am unworthy of having a roommate who serves me
e. I am unworthy of having so many friends who are there for me to talk to and who feed me when I’m hungry.
f. I am unworthy of being part of a body of believers that I can interact with
g. I am unworthy of having a church that I can go to and that teaches correct doctrine
h. I am unworthy to have so many places of worship where I can enjoy the Lord
i. I am unworthy to have dated such a great girl.
j. I am unworthy to know older men who instruct me on how to live
k. I am unworthy to be a friend of Jim Ayres (and Bethany too, caleb is not my friend yet)
l. I am unworthy of knowing older women who care in a different and gentle way
m. I am unworthy to sit under the shepherding of John MacArthur
n. I am unworthy of being taken under Uncle Craig’s wing as a youth
o. I am unworthy of hearing the sermons of Rick Holland
p. I am unworthy to be ministering alongside Justin Mckitterick

3. Circumstantial graces

a. I am unworthy to have money in my pocket and in my bank account
b. I am unworthy to have an apartment to live in
c. I am unworthy to have a large and comfortable and warm bed to sleep in with soft blankets and a clean pillow.
d. I am unworthy to have a clean bathroom
e. I am unworthy to have a shower with hot running water and shampoo and soap.
f. I am unworthy to have a clean kitchen with functioning stove, oven, and sink
g. I am unworthy of having a computer, or having such an expensive one
h. I am unworthy to have a car to drive and money to buy the gas
i. I am unworthy to have an Ipod
j. I am unworthy to go to UCLA or having had an education at all throughout my entire life.
k. I am unworthy of having grown up in an affluent neighborhood with educational advantages
l. I am unworthy to have a mansion for a home
m. I am unworthy to have food on my plate for every meal
n. I am unworthy of being taken care of since birth
o. I am unworthy of having a refrigerator
p. I am unworthy of the abundance of groceries inside of it
q. I am unworthy of having carpet
r. I am unworthy of having had musical training
s. I am unworthy of having such a good guitar, let a lone a guitar at all
t. I am unworthy of having a shirt, underwear, pants, coats, and other clothing.

4. Physical graces

a. I am unworthy of being healthy without any distinct ills
b. I am unworthy to have hair on my head
c. I am unworthy to have eyes that function and eyelids that can blink.
d. I am unworthy to have a fully formed face without particular deformities
e. I am unworthy to have bones that do not break
f. I am unworthy to have a mouth that opens
g. I am unworthy to have teeth that can chew
h. I am unworthy to have a tongue that can taste.
i. I am unworthy of having a body without paralysis
j. I am unworthy of having hands that function and distinct fingers that can bend
k. I am unworthy of having both arms
l. I am unworthy to be lean and not overweight
m. I am unworthy of having legs that can carry my weight and walk and run.
n. I am unworthy to have feet that can hold my legs.
o. I am unworthy of having the strength to make my limbs work
p. I am unworthy of having a nose that can smell
q. I am unworthy of having ears that can hear
r. I am unworthy of having a sense of tone and pitch.
s. I am unworthy of having no pains in my body at any given time.
t. I am unworthy of experiencing the pleasure of eating
u. I am unworthy of being able to go to the bathroom without issue
v. I am unworthy of having a heart that beats regularly
w. I am unworthy of having a liver that processes my food
x. I am unworthy of having blood that flows and scabs.
y. I am unworthy of having functional internal and external organs
z. I am unworthy of having knees that can bend without pain
aa. I am unworthy of having nails without fungus
bb. I am unworthy of having a voice that can sing and speak

5. Fundamental graces

a. I am unworthy of having energy
b. I am unworthy of existing
c. I am unworthy of emotion
d. I am unworthy of having a will
e. I am unworthy of having an intellect and awareness

“in everything give thanks; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.”
(1Th 5:18 NAS95S)

“God moves in a mysterious way”

One of the most powerful supports in my life apart from the Scriptures is found in Christian hymns and songs. Lately I have been dwelling on hymn written by William Cowper called “God moves in a mysterious way”. Waking up and walking to class the words repeat in my mind over and over again and it helps me to settle my thoughts when I get anxious or when I am laid low. But what makes this hymn particularly powerful to me is understanding the words in view of the life of the hymn writer himself.

William Cowper (pronounced Cooper) lived a life full of trial. Even to his dying day he walked through the depths of depression and loneliness. When he was only a child, just six years old, his mother died and he was plunged into his first bout of depression. During his teenage years he attempted to commit suicide by jumping into the Thames river, however due to a thick fog the cab driver that he had hired to take him there could not find the destination. He spent the next portion of his life in an asylum where he slowly recovered under the care of a Dr. Nathaniel Cotton, a devout Christian. Under Cotton’s care and guidance Cowper came to know the Lord. There were many more trials to come after his conversion and in the midst he wrote this powerful hymn:

 

God moves in a mysterious way
His wonders to perform;
He plants His footsteps in the sea
And rides upon the storm.

Deep in unfathomable mines
Of never failing skill
He treasures up His bright designs
And works His sovereign will.

Ye fearful saints, fresh courage take;
The clouds ye so much dread
Are big with mercy and shall break
In blessings on your head.

Judge not the Lord by feeble sense,
But trust Him for His grace;
Behind a frowning providence
He hides a smiling face.

His purposes will ripen fast,
Unfolding every hour;
The bud may have a bitter taste,
But sweet will be the flower.

Blind unbelief is sure to err
And scan His work in vain;
God is His own interpreter,
And He will make it plain.

Original Sin, A Brief Study and Defense

I don’t do this often, but here is a brief entry on Original Sin. I’m not brilliant like Phil Johnson or Mark Dever or any other doctrinal smart-guy for that matter, so let me know if I make mistakes.

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1. Introduction

Not long ago I was walking on campus, making my way down bruin walk when I bumped into a tall, bald, caucasian man. He had waved as I was walking by and made a comment about my hat and my shirt being a nice combination of apparel. I was somewhat taken by surprise, so I paused. Having just gotten out of class, I was intending to run and get a quick lunch and go study in the library. However the moment this man stopped me I knew he wanted to share his Hindu faith with me. Afterall he was holding a book with the name “Dharma” on it. So I ended up staying where I was and spent the next hour or so speaking with him. The ensuing conversation was long-winded, and very sad.

At a certain point, we came to a crossroads in our dialog where he and I could go no further. I had spoken about the universal sinfulness of man and his fallen nature and he had disagreed adamantly towards such a doctrine, calling it unfair and unloving of God to make or allow man to be born in that way. So I appealed to the ultimate authority, Scripture. Yet even so, he would not agree or admit to such a doctrine. Finally, I asked him, well, if such a doctrine were in fact reality and you knew it to be true, would you follow after this God, this Jesus? The answer was an angry “No.”

It did not come as a surprise, you see, the doctrine of Original Sin is inherently offensive. It is a doctrine that humiliates man and appeals to a side of sovereignty that we do not like to attribute to a good and loving God. We cannot speak of Original Sin without stripping man bare of his own moral ability, his own capacity to do good. The main offense of the doctrine then is in its resulting condition in man: Total Depravity.

2. The Fall leading to Original Sin and Imputed Sin

In Adam’s sin there were two results, for himself and subsequently for the rest of mankind. When he ate from the tree and disobeyed the word of the Lord, (1) his innocence became corrupted. Simultaneously in the same act, he (2) acquired the status of guilt before God.

Sin was therefore introduced into his nature and legal guilt was credited to his soul. These two facets of Adam’s one sin are the same two facets of sin all mankind experiences today. Since we are all descended from a corrupt seed we are all natural born sinners. Furthermore, because Adam was the chosen representative of all mankind to follow, he brought the legal guilt of his one sin upon his entire posterity. These two facets are known as Original sin and Imputed sin and can be defined thusly:

Original sin: The inherited tendency towards sin. The inner corruption of man which he inherits by being descended from the seed of Adam who sinned. Calvin explained it this way, “All of us, therefore, descending from an impure seed, come into the world tainted with the contagion of sin. Nay, before we behold the light of the sun we are in God’s sight defiled and polluted.” This doctrine is often closely related if not equated to the doctrine of Total Depravity, or man’s absolute moral inability.

Imputed Sin: The inherited guilt of Adam. The legal, forensic standing of guilt, which is imputed or credited directly from Adam, mankind’s federal head, to every human being. This is a direct crediting and does not pass through the generations as an inheritance.

3. Experiential and Observational Support

Jonathan Edwards gives a powerful argument in The Great Christian Doctrine of Original Sin Defended especially sections VIII and IX. But here is the outline of his argument as pertains to “Evidences of Original Sin from Facts and Events”.

  1. All men tend to sin and ruin
  2. Universal sin proves a sinful propensity
  3. This tendency most corrupt and pernicious
  4. All men sin immediately
  5. All have more sin than virtue
  6. Men’s proneness to extreme stupidity, &c
  7. Generality of mankind, wicked
  8. Great means used to oppose wickedness

I will not here develop this section. If you are interested, you can go check out Edward’s works on Original sin. I guarantee you will be astounded by its breadth.

4. Scriptural Support

There are numerous portions of Scripture that serve as proof-texts to the doctrine of Original Sin (or for all practical purposes, Total Depravity). Just to name a few:

“the intent of man’s heart is evil from his youth” (Gen. 8:21, NAS95S) ““How then can a man be just with God? Or how can he be clean who is born of woman? “If even the moon has no brightness And the stars are not pure in His sight, How much less man, that maggot, And the son of man, that worm!””(Job 25:4-6, NAS95S) ““Who can make the clean out of the unclean? No one!”(Job 14:4, NAS95S) “Behold, I was brought forth in iniquity, And in sin my mother conceived me.”(Psa. 51:5, NAS95S) “The wicked are estranged from the womb; These who speak lies go astray from birth.”(Psa. 58:3, NAS95S) “The wicked are estranged from the womb; they go astray from birth, speaking lies.” (Psa. 58:1-3, ESV) “the hearts of the sons of men are full of evil and insanity is in their hearts throughout their lives. Afterwards they go to the dead.” (Eccl. 9:3, NAS95S) “”The heart is more deceitful than all else and is desperately sick; Who can understand it?” (Jer. 17:9, NAS95S)

The text that I want to highlight is Ephesians 2:1-3.

“And you were dead in your trespasses and sins, in which you formerly walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air, of the spirit that is now working in the sons of disobedience. Among them we too all formerly lived in the lusts of our flesh, indulging the desires of the flesh and of the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, even as the rest.” (Eph. 2:1-3, NAS95S)

The word for nature here is φυσις. nature: —instinctively(1), natural(1), natural*(1), nature(7), physically(1), race(m)(1), species(m)(1) It is a noun derived from the verb φυω, which means to bring forth, grow, spring up. The picture given is a seed, the core and the foundation of all natural development. We were by nature, children of wrath, that is, we were at the core of our existence, even at birth, sinful. Subsequently all developments of our being are tainted. You cannot get around this verse. The meaning is clear, we were by nature, by birth, by species, sinful.

5. Objections:

The main objection for Original sin is not so much the truthfulness of its claim as it is the fairness of the resultant moral inability it entails. Therefore we can say that the doctrine of Total depravity (i.e. Absolute Inability) is at the heart of this objection. The issue is inability. Does inability negate accountability? If we are unable to not sin how can we then be held accountable for our sins? Original sin states that man has an unfailing tendency, a natural and hence unstoppable bent to sin. He is born that way. Can this be fair?

(The following is by no means an exhaustive defense of the moral uprightness of God in the doctrine of Original Sin. )

Let’s begin in the Garden where the ball first started rolling.

Objection 1.a.

If mankind did not choose Adam, (who brought about Original Sin through the fall) how is it morally acceptable for him to represent man?

Defense 1: The unity we have with Adam can be seen as morally benign (or unaffected)

We had no choice when Adam was appointed as our representative in the garden. Many call that morally unfair. Yet likewise today, we have no choice when we are born in America and subsequently counted as U.S. citizens. The state of our existence in that sense is also determined without our choice. Yet why is it that we don’t complain? Nobody cries unmoral! Unjust! Why?

Firstly, because the specific state of our existence is beneficial to us. Often times people only raise concerns of moral fairness when the circumstance is attended with negative conditions. Nobody says anything when things are beneficial or even pleasurable. But this is all beside the point. We are not here speaking of the negative result of Adam’s representation, our focus is upon the morality of his position and appointment alone.

Secondly, because it is simply not a moral issue. You were born in the realm of U.S. sovereignty, therefore you are counted a citizen of the national entity. You were born into the financial status of your family and are thus forced to live under that status for the better portion of your childhood. You were born to your parents, and therefore inherited their physical characteristics. All of these circumstances were completely outside of your influence and affected the state of your existence. Are any of these issues of morality? Who’s to say if it’s right or wrong morally that I inherited my dad’s thick brow and square jaw? Who’s to say that it is morally wrong for me to be a U.S. Citizen? These are not issues of morality. Neither is the appointment of Adam a threat to the moral uprightness of God.

Defense 2: The Unity we have with Adam, who was the cause of our condition, is a wise and hopeful unity.

When you were a child, did you choose your political representative? No. Why? Because somebody decided that you didn’t have the smarts or even the mental capacity to elect a fitting representative for yourself. Politics was simply too complicated for you back then. Was that unfair? Was that unjust? Unmoral? No, I think not. Rather, it was wise and even loving for your parents to elect your political representative on your behalf.

Similarly, the Lord has chosen Adam to be our representative. And how much wiser is he than us? And how much more informed is he than us to make such a decision? And how much loftier and more complex is the issue of spiritual representation for the whole of mankind than mere politics?

Furthermore, in pondering the state of Adam, we can also see that he was a better man than any man to come after him, untainted by sinful tendencies, and more intelligent than any other human being to follow, his choice was by far better and more secure than ours could ever be. Adam was and is therefore man’s best bet back in the garden. To put it concisely, God knows we’re bumbling dolts, so he gave us a man of true and unrestrained brilliance to be our spokesman.

Objection 1.b.

If we cannot help but sin, doesn’t that nullify our choice? And hence our accountability for our sin?

Defense 1: Moral inability differs from Natural inability and hence does not negate accountability.

If I were to tell you to go and be a murderer, you would tell me “No, I cannot.” I would then ask you why? And you would answer, because “It’s against my character and my inner convictions”. This “cannot” is a type of “Moral Inability.” Because of your nature, you cannot do this or that, and yet simultaneously you are not without choice. When I asked you the question if you would go and be a murderer the option was open to you and you could have done it. However because of your nature you would not. If I asked you a thousand times under the same conditions, you would still not do it. You therefore had a moral inability.

Now, Man is born with a sinful nature; his tendency is to sin. Therefore when the question is asked “can you stop sinning?” the true answer of his heart will be “no. I cannot.” Do you see, Man indeed has a choice, and yet at the same time, his choice will always be the same. Therefore he is accountable to his sins even if he always by nature chooses to sin and is morally unable to do good (not sin).

6. Last thoughts

Well, I think that’s more than enough for a blog like mine. I hope it was helpful, and beyond that if the Lord should be so gracious, I hope it was edifying.

The question “why defend the doctrine?” Often rolls into my head when I write these sorts of things, and usually the answer that comes out is because I love the truth. I love thinking about it, and wrestling with it. It is a devotional experience to meditate on the Doctrines of Grace and put them on repeat in your head all day. Of course I also take into account the exhortation Paul gave to Timothy to guard what has been entrusted to him. I would like to do that too though I know that this is probably not the sort of guarding Paul was referring to, since it involves a certain amount of extra-biblical logic . Nonetheless going through these thoughts and reading through these scriptures has given my mind both exercise upon precious foundational truths and a better appreciation for the depths of God’s word. These were all great motivations for me even in the midst of writing.

But foremost is always worship.

starting on apps.

I found it funny that in one of the Chinese apps it asks :

你會不會看中國字? ___會 ___不會

(translates to: can you read chinese? ___yes ____no) 

I will also be applying to Pasadena Art Center.  My youth pastor went there for school, weird huh.  Does that mean I will one day be a youth pastor in a high class bay area suburbia? boy, what’s next.  I wonder where he met his wife.

waking tranwei yu

 

Original Sin defended

(in the works )


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