I didn’t sleep well last night. As I was tossing and turning I couldn’t decide weather I was imagining or dreaming. When I got up, I wondered if it really mattered weather it was one or the other. Aren’t they about the same anyways?
Archive for January, 2007
Just the other day, a member of our fellowship’s mother passed away. We prayed for her before she went but the Lord intended to take her home anyhow. A little earlier than we expected.
I suppose there are a number of things I want to say about it all, for the sons left behind with no parents, for the painful love of the sovereignty of God, or even for the imminency of the call to repentance for those who have not believed like she did. But instead I want to say something simple, brief, and to the point.
You all ought to know, she is standing before the Lord now, and what she sees is what she could only believe in before. If I had only seen her before she left. I would have asked her to say a few things to the Lord for me. Yes, I know I can speak to God now, and voice every concern but sometimes my prayers on earth feel so unstable in my own heart. Like I don’t really mean them. But I know that when you stand before God, it’s real. You can’t be fake when your looking into the face of the one True God.
So if I could have, I would have asked her to tell Him never to let me go and that I really do want to be with Him. That even when I wander, the world is not what I really want, but He is and that I’m so sorry for all the times I lived like He wasn’t. And while I’m here on earth, if he could make me a man after His own heart so that when I do see Him, I can run into the gates instead of walk.
There’s more of course but that’s the thought.
If there’s anyone reading this who knows that they will die soon, please tell God these things for me. Thank you.
I love this account.
““Since the beginning of time it has never been heard that anyone opened the eyes of a person born blind. “If this man were not from God, He could do nothing.” They answered him, “You were born entirely in sins, and are you teaching us?” So they put him out.
Jesus heard that they had put him out, and finding him, He said, “Do you believe in the Son of Man?” He answered, “Who is He, Lord, that I may believe in Him?” Jesus said to him, “You have both seen Him, and He is the one who is talking with you.”
And he said, “Lord, I believe.” And he worshiped Him.
(John 9:32-38 NAS95S)
I was reading this online article by the senior editor of Newsweek magazine, and in it he describes his struggle to understand physics and the general theory of relativity. For me, it’s already a jump to think about this sort of thing. But it was comforting to hear a far more trained and intellectual mind say similar things. Remember now, The principle of General relativity is that the laws of physics must be the same for all observers (accelerated or not).
“The Special and General Theory” was the prototype for all subsequent efforts to explain the universe in words rather than equations. It marked the earliest appearance of that ubiquitous character, the man on the train, a faceless stick figure glimpsed through a coach-car window as he zooms past at nearly the speed of light. Remarkably, we can observe him as he goes about his obsessive tasks: bouncing a Ping-pong ball on a table, or shining a flashlight at a mirror on the ceiling, or holding up a clock for us to compare to the identical one we just happen to hold. Many hours have I devoted to contemplating his inertial frame of reference and trying to reconcile it to my own, standing motionless on the platform. I have engaged him in my own thought experiments, even conjuring a gedanken companion who rides a train on the adjacent track. If they each pass my position at the same instant, traveling at three-quarters the speed of light in opposite directions, then their speed relative to each other is one and a half times the speed of …wait a second, that can’t be right, can it? What I’m up against here is a problem in translation; the laws of nature are written in equations, but I read only English.” – Jerry Alder
Have you ever thought that perhaps one day after you wake up from the grave, you will find out that all the equations you ever knew in your former life were just the failing sparks of something far more mysterious? Perhaps the final state of physics will one day extend into the the metaphysical, even the spiritual. Boy, who knows.
Updates:
- Tommorow school starts. 2 out of 3 quarters now. Only three classes left till the end. Amazing.
- I got a new phone, same number. Thanks Steve, I so appreciate your ultimate nerd skills.
- I have to take a Chinese test tommorow to get into Chinese class but all the classes are full…Lord work something please!
- Hung out at the Dillanes today, they are officially still cool people, and they still have the hospitality to feed me!
- Met Philip, A Filipino guy living with the Dillane’s, turns out he and I are the same generation of the fruit of Jim’s ministry, wow. And he is currently the director of a Phillipine Christian organization that trains pastors with …guess what, Romans study! My Favorite!
But on another note, today at Church, what a sermon! Did anyone not cry when they saw Amal? Makes me really want to hit the missions field. Taiwan, I’m coming for you, just you wait.
